Fear is not of the Lord

I am afraid. Afraid of what the near future holds for me. Will I be a widow? Or will I be a wife nursing my husband as he goes through cancer treatments. I know that the fear I am feeling is not of what God wants for me but there is fear. I don't want to be alone. Alone raising this child whom we prayed for for so many years. We had a follow-up appt. with Jim's urologist today. The first one since his release from the hospital where we learned he has prostate cancer. I am not the only wife in this stage of life but he isn't even in his 60's yet. Isn't this what we are supposed to face in our retirement years? I am not convinced that his young age is a plus in this fight to win over the dreaded C word. I am really having some issues but I know if I just give all my concerns and worries to the one who loves Jim more than I do I will be ok. We both will be ok.